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| Photos: © Stan B. |
Every year around this time I would get particularly anxious, particularly as to how long it would take me to get my first good shot of the brand new year, that is- would I ever take a decent shot again in my life? Lately, I've really gotten better about this particular anxiety- and for good reason. For decades I'd get three, four keepers a year... and not for a lack of trying. But for the last half dozen years, I've been averaging at least fifty per year- not fifty possibilities, not fifty temporary heart throbs, but fifty solid stick 'em in the portfolio for keeps! And it's about goddamn time!It's instilled a certain amount of confidence, and ease of mind. I know they'll come, not always when or how I want, but come they will- as long as I do keep trying.
The last good photo I took was early December, and then... nada. I kept shooting through it all, weather permitting and got a heckuva lotta almosts. And I hate almosts- the same work and energy you put into a keeper but with a whole lot more doubt cause you just ain't sure, the whole process through! So why not just drop it and save all the toil and heartache? 'Cause sometimes, sometimes all the work, editing and follow through somehow gets you a winner. Most of the time it just ends in disgust and disappointment- one BIG time suck! But I'm even handling those better, realizing it's just part of the process and managing to maintain my sanity in a much calmer (and welcomed) fashion- it'll come. After seven decades I finally have the modicum of confidence to believe and trust in the process... enough confidence that I'm even successfully incorporating something I only experimented with years past- fill flash!
January the third I heard about numbnuts' invasion of Venezuela, and that there would be a spur of the moment protest. I knew this would be a small affair and that chances of nailing even one satisfactory photo were extremely poor to none. Regardless, got my gear and went- with zero expectations. And just when I started to think, enough of this no win situation- I decided... chill- is what it is, and I knew what it would be when I got there, so just hang, relax, and... observe. Twenty minutes later I had my first two photos of 2026.
No, that's definitely not always gonna be the case, it's usually not gonna be the case! But I no longer have the time to sulk, my time is limited, and I'm determined to make the most of it. For those just starting out, when you're not working it- you should be looking, learning to separate the wheat from the chaff, absorbing every bit as much as you can. It won't all pay off ASAP, but it'll be there in reserve, and if you work it long enough, it'll make itself known as you make it your own.